Friday, May 19, 2017


This trip was supposed to be really smooth!
Apart from the chaotic sleeping hours, being sick during the trip is such a downer!
I can't even tell if I'm feeling hot or cold.
(Probably running a slight fever)

Damn, I'm supposed to go visiting tomorrow.

Saturday, May 6, 2017

Friday, April 21, 2017


What was up with yesterday?
So much happenings.


We make decisions to shape a better us.
We grow with the correct ones,
We learn from the wrong ones.

We should not lose ourselves as we celebrate,
We should not be consumed by regrets as we err.

We accept the consequences,
We face the music,
We move on.

We deserve the best for ourselves,
For as long as we get to live to see another day.


It has been a while since I've tried to be "philosophical".

it has been an immensely insane year (or more) for me.
I saw that, nothing is more important than yourself.
To be alive, is the greatest thing ever.

Wednesday, April 19, 2017


you know when parents always tell you not to do this and that but they ended up doing it by themselves?

don't they know they're suppose to be our role models?
don't they know how strong their actions can actually impact us?
somehow we can get influenced and we follow suit, unknowingly.

if only they know...

Sunday, April 9, 2017


it's officially a family crisis.


We had a really huge fight tonight.
And involved all of us.
Each and every one of us.
Something that has never ever happened.

The screams, shoutings, cries, fist-clenching and pointing fingers.
 The neighbors definitely heard us.

We fought and fought until it dawned on us.
The reason was clear.
That was the root.
We see what's going on right now.

So how do we deal with the "root"?


Why can't my parents be like others'?
I would rather them to be separated than to let me go through 20 years of mental torture.
fuck my life.
fuck my past 20 years of life.

Thursday, April 6, 2017


one after another, wearing me down again and again.
sometimes i feel like i'm letting them down.
they pulled me up again and again and here i'm tripping myself.

did you hear my desperation call?